Hi Couchies. I did a sort of dumb thing. I stopped taking my AD and my AP this weekend. I figured if I felt this bad on the medication, why was I taking it? I felt pretty much the same until today. My anxiety is through the roof (but that didn't happen until I went to work and found out that the Engineer quit--seriously worried how we are going to get jobs out without an engineer). And then I'm anxious about not taking the medication. I've been on meds for so long, I sort of thought it would be good for my brain to reboot, but now I'm anxious that not taking my medication is going to push me further down the hole I'm in. So now I don't know whether to take the medication again, or just see what happens with not taking it. I don't see PDOC until November but I don't forsee my reboot going that long. I'm serious struggling with anxiety and SH thoughts today though so I'm going to take some anti-anxiety medication. I think for sure I'll restart the AD. I'm not sure about the AP. But I was having visual hallucinations yesterday. I get them on or off the meds apparently. I don't know what to do. HUGS Kit