I'm so sorry LT. You've got every right to look for someone else who might suit you better. Yes there's a fine line between not wanting to repeat the same pattern with every t you meet but you also have the right to seek someone who is perhaps more forthcoming with empathy, if you need that. If you are repeating a pattern then I will think that will become obvious in time but you seem really aware and sure about what you're doing and I think that says a lot in itself. There's nothing wrong with looking around and it sounds like this ts door is always open if you feel you want to return any point.