So I'm volunteering for 2 hrs a week. It's babysitting a bunch of teenage boys while they play board games and lunch but it's stressful. It's only 11 weeks . I got this, right? I'm nervous I have to talk, direct and organize these kids. It's not like I'm teaching them anything but still nervous. My son will be there so he'll help. I still can't believe I was okay with this. This is a huge thing for me. Last time I volunteered I had to use a sedative to sleep the night before because I was crying to hard with anxiety to sleep. This was not the plan this morning. I wasn't even going to go with them but staying alone all day wasn't an option yet. So I went and I'm excited to be helping but I'm not sure I'm stable enough. We'll see. I've been running around all day and organizing things. I so didn't want to get up this morning.
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Me- SzA
Husband- Bipolar 1
Daughter- mood disorder+
Comfortable broken and happy
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