I feel vulnerable and fragile today. I'm letting the accounting firm we pay reconcile the bank accounts for the month. I just don't have it in me to be at my best today and they want it done ASAP. I spent the morning so far putting out fires (not literally) and trying to get vendor's paid when we haven't been paid by customers. I took some anti-anxiety medication and the shaking seems to have stopped. I feel like i can't think or talk though. I'm trying to breathe deeply to settle my core being. I'm debating about asking my PDOC for a couple of days off of work, but then I don't want the doctor's note to say "psychiatrist" I'm still in my 90 day probation period since we were bought out in June. I don't need ammo against me right now. It shouldn't be held against me, but who am I kidding? They do it all the time.