Well that just sucks. She missed the boat completely Bluebicycle. I'm no expert, but it really doesn't sound like anxiety to me. Given everything you've said it sounds more like Hypomania with a touch of psychosis. I know many don't like the P word, but I'm not sure what else to say. I hope the benadryl helps. Benadryl works in the brain similarly to an antipsychotic actually.

You seem more like you have energy to burn and racing thoughts than nervousness and worry. I feel like she should have done more to help you. I wish that Thursday appointment was an option, although I know you feel like the doctor is equally useless.

Keep checking in. You're doing so many great things for yourself by staying home and attempting to get the help you need from professionals. I wish it had worked out that they actually helped.