I feel like I talked about the most stupid things to T today. A conversation I had with my cousin this morning, playing with my kids, and a little about the pdoc appointment last week again and the SH on my wrist. He hasn't seen it and has never asked to see my SH, but I still have it wrapped so no one else sees. Talked briefly about me wanting more but not feeling like I'm important enough to have more. Talked about the schedule change and him cutting yesterday's session by 5 minutes.
I want to be able to tell him about my SI and SH thoughts lately but I worry about how he'd respond. I feel like I'm doing something wrong by telling pdoc the thoughts but not him even though the pdoc specifically asked about what I've thought about.