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Originally Posted by bluebicycle
Thanks fern and WC.
I am starting to feel like I don't belong to this reality. I am trying to fight off the feelings that say I am not a part of this world, but the more and more I think of it, the more I feel like I don't belong.
I don't feel right. I am having difficulties telling what is part of reality and what is not. Like, "is my hand a hand? Or is it a hologram?"
Maybe I should take some Benadryl to knock myself out. F*** work.
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I experienced feelings exactly like that. I remember what it was like. You are a part of this reality though. You do belong. However, your mind is playing very serious tricks on you and you need some help. This kind of thinking spiraled way out of control for me very quickly.
I'm not exactly what the right steps are to take here. If it were me, I'd be checking myself in IP because this kind of thinking led to very dark places when it happened to me.
I did spend a lot of time looking for patterns when I got better. My experiences felt so unique and I wanted to help myself understand them better. I have now experienced a couple of people in IP in psychosis as well as a few people here feeling the same way. We have all experienced derealization. It is a pattern of psychosis. Try to keep fighting. YOU ARE A PART OF THIS REALITY.
