Hi misfit77. So sorry to hear you're feeling so conflicted. Anonymous2's and Spacemarine's posts are a great place to start! I'm guilty of ending relationships just because of what was happening within me, that had nothing to do with the relationships I was in. I'd get overwhelmed with my own emotions that I couldn't see straight. Then again, I've had some toxic to me relationships, too. Sometimes, I simply can't tell the difference - that's when a neutral 3rd party, like my therapist, is a life saver for me. I hope you find the guidance you need for your particular situation.