Random thoughts:

Someone posted on another forum I'm on asking for a recommendation for a T. I messaged them R's contact details. I've done that before with someone else I wasn't super close to but saw every now and again before he dropped out.

I was talking to R yesterday, when he brought up what made me first contact him and at the end I said I didn't want him to have new clients. He said it was because of his other clients that he could offer to see me at my reduced rate xD.

I know he has other clients, but I don't want to think about them. I get jealous because I think he'll forget about me.