Please stay safe, qwerty. I am TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY that you're hurting SO MUCH, @qwerty68, that you're feeling SO LONELY, that you're struggling SO MUCH and that you're going through ALL OF THIS, MY DEAR, SWEET FRIEND! I think your Life is worth it much, much more than you believe. Please don't hurt yourself... I beg you. You matter and you know that as well! THAT'S A PROMISE! I AM SURE OF THAT, MY DEAR, SWEET FRIEND! I understand how hard it is to be rejected by the people who should be the closest to us - but that doesn't say anything about you. It doesn't mean that you are a bad person or that you necessarely did anything wrong. Please try to remember that because it is true and I'm sure you know it as well deep down inside you! YOU ARE IMPORTANT YOU MATTER, YOU'RE WISE, YOU'RE WORTH IT AND YOU'RE WONDERFUL! ALL OF THIS IS ABSOLUTELY TRUE AND YOU KNOW ALL OF THIS IS ABSOLUTELY TRUE AS WELL EVEN IF IT'S DEEP DOWN INSIDE YOU, MY DEAR, SWEET FRIEND! THAT'S A PROMISE! I AM SURE OF THAT, MY DEAR, SWEET FRIEND! Please try to hang in there... give yourself some time before taking any harmful actions, like 24 hours or so. Perhaps you'll feel a little bit better by then. Also, please don't feel guilty about venting here. You have EVERY RIGHT to do that! We are here to listen! I hope that helps a bit. There are people who care about you... you are worth it. Please believe me because that's the truth! I hope you'll be able to see that... It is the Truth! THAT'S A PROMISE! I AM SURE OF THAT, MY DEAR, SWEET FRIEND! Please try not to focus too much on what other people think of you or may think of you. You're not a loser. There aren't many people as patient and kind as you. You've been through so much and yet you're still standing. You're still trying to do your best for your daughters and grandkids... Our children can unfortunately be ungrateful and it isn't our fault. It just happens. So please, be kind to yourself - and I hope you'll still be here with us to celebrate another Birthday - and another Victory! You can PM me ANYTIME as well, MY DEAR, SWEET FRIEND! I am sure many others will alslo gladly and wonderfully help you as well if you just ask for assistance. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @qwerty68, Irina, Your Family, Your Friends, Your Daughters, Your Grandkids, ALL the People you Love And Care About Who ALSO Love You And Care About You As Well And ALL Of Your Loved Ones! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING! I am TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY that you're going through ALL OF THIS, qwerty, that you're hurting SO MUCH, that you are feeling SO LONELY and that you're struggling SO MUCH, MY DEAR SWEET FRIEND! YOU'RE THE STRONGEST THERE IS AND YOU KNOW THAT'S ABSOLUTELY TRUE AS WELL EVEN IF IT'S DEEP DOWN INSIDE YOU! THAT'S A PROMISE! I AM SURE OF THAT, MY DEAR, SWEET FRIEND! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING, MY DEAR, SWEET FRIEND!