I'm sorry it didn't go well MM. Maybe it will improve with time. I've always needed some adjustment time to really know and trust new therapists. The one I had now had a lot of strict ideas about hospitalization but my pdoc didn't so I wasn't hospitalized when he thought I should be a bunch of times. Now he doesn't worry about it and knows I do what I have to do to be safe and will go IP if needed. He definitely is aware of when things are bad and he monitors carefully and contacts my pdoc if he is really concerned and thinks I can't communicate effectively but he definitely no longer freaks out. Hopefully your therapist will get used to your symptoms and adjust too.