I feel a considerable amount of vitriol toward ex-DrT. I think this is a sign of progress for me, because I used to have trouble feeling anger or would turn it inward. But I don't feel that how things ended up going with him is my fault. It's like...therapy with him taught me how to identify him as the problem. Not me. So, I guess it was worth something then. Because it means I don't always blame myself (I blamed myself for a long time after the rupture with ex-MC). I figure he's surprised I haven't emailed him. That I'm not asking to see him or to come back. Maybe at some point, I'll want to go in to talk, like months from now. But not anytime soon. I do sorta miss his fish though...