I am TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY that you're hurting SO MUCH and that you're going through ALL of this, @whimsicalman! I understand why it'd be difficult for you. I am so sorry that I don't have more useful advice for you. I Hope and Pray that you'll be able to win against your Anxiety and "Stage Fright" since that's what it seems you're struggling with the most. I'll keep you in my Thoughts and Prayers if that is ok with you. I hope it helps! Also, please definitely try to get as much sleep as you need! You are important,y ou matter, you're worth it, you're wise and YOU'RE WONDERFUL! That's ABSOLUTELY TRUE and YOU KNOW THAT'S ABSOLUTELY TRUE AS WELL even if it's deep down inside you! THAT'S A PROMISE! I AM SURE OF THAT! In any case, you're NEVER alone in your struggles. Please feel fre to PM me ANYTIME if you need someone to talk to or vent to or even if you need advice and support OF ANY KIND! I'll try my best to get back at you AS SOON AS I POSSIBLY CAN! THAT'S A PROMISE! I AM SURE PLENTY OF OTHERS WILL ALSO GLADLY, KINDLY, WISELY, GENEROUSLY AND WONDERFULLY HELP YOU OUT AS WELL IF YOU JUST ASK! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @whimsicalman, Your Family, your Friends And ALL Of Your Loved Ones! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING, MY AWESOME, BEAUTIFUL, CARING, KIND, SWEET, GENEROUS, EXPANSIVE, FRIENDLY, WISE AND WONDERFUL FRIEND! I AM TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY THAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH ALL OF THIS AND THAT YOU'RE HURTING SO MUCH!