From what the receptionist made it sound like is that he doesn't want me on the lexapro at all from his message to her. But I also know that's just her relaying a message and may not be what he wants.

I've been trying to keep myself distracted with homework and the kids. The SI thoughts and SH urges have been really bad, but I dont know if that's unjust how things are or if it's connected to being on meds then not being on meds in a 2-3 week period.