I brought up the fact that I knew that if she met someone awesome there I would lose out because he is there and I am not. She told me she was not looking and there was no Russian man that could compare to me. She seems to really dislike them, basically calls them all abusive control freaks, which can not be true but it is certainly her experience. It is why a pathetic, ugly loser like me looked so good to her.

It is telling that the one person in my entire life that treated me like she loved me lived so far away and is such a complicated situation. My ex-wife and the few people I dated never treated me like they loved me and when they got what they needed they ditched me, Irina is different than that yet even if she comes back and talks to me the odds are long that we will ever be together.

It is moot





You guys are really great, especially Só leigheas.