I'm sorry you didn't feel a connection initially. Some of the things she said would have been red flags for me as well.

I can see though that it might be difficult for her to trust you to stay safe. You've had some pretty serious symptoms for a while that require ntervention for most patients. I know you live and survive under those conditions, but I don't think she is out of bounds to be concerned. It may take her a while to get a sense of how much you tolerate safely normally. Keep in mind though it may be her position that she's not just looking to keep you safe and tolerating this way of life where you're constantly swimming upstream. She might be aiming to see you healthy and to see you thrive. Assuming that is the case, she's working with a different standard and convincing her to be comfortable with you being in your current state wouldn't be all that helpful. I get that you're used to it, but I personally would love to see you thrive. You have such a great spirit MM. Don't forget that. Good luck with this. I'm hopeful it can work out despite the bumpy start.