onlymedid ,,, we have chatted a little .. Given each other support .

I really hope you Not take this the wrong way ,,, but I will post this for you in this ,, My reply .

I maybe totally off base......................... .

onlymedid I am scared to say this and may I find the right words ... Please do not equate the body reaction and gratification to another as Love ,,, Until you Find The comfortable place with another so the past feelings give you a reflection : : And You May give to another a hug and Never feel confused .

These were some very hard words for me to find ,,,, and Much harder to say as I may understand what ????? I know someone very close to me that your description reminded me of .

Find You answer ,,, and Maybe at that time you will also find the amnesia you feel would .......... release you from the thoughts you live with.