Scooter, I hope today is better for you.

fern, I'm glad to read that your Geodon taper is going fairly well. Hopefully your sleep quality will improve soon.

bluebicycle, It's nice to read that today is better so far. I hope you have a good therapy appointment.

Yesterday, soon after I wrote my last update here, my mood sort of dipped. I also felt a bit unwell, physically. This may sound odd, but the new activities I did, two days in a row, were a bit stressful in the end. I shouldn't have agreed to go back the very next day, but with a vacation coming I felt pressured to do so. I think I put too much on my calendar for next Wednesday. I have the volunteering from 10 am to 12 noon, then a NAMI Connection group at 2 pm (I'd have to go out to lunch nearby then return). Then I planned to leave NAMI Connections early to get to my psychiatrist's office by 3:30 pm, all the way back towards home. I think that much would hurt me. I'm thinking of cutting out the NAMI Connection group out entirely, until I return from vacation.

I thought my husband was going out with his buddy for dinner last night. Frankly, I look forward to those evenings so I don't have to cook dinner. In the end, hubby came home regular time. Earlier in the day, I went to a favorite pizza place after my volunteering and sat at their bar for pizza, thinking that would be my dinner, too. I even ordered one beer, which I shouldn't have. Then on my left side was some man and my right side a woman, both clearly heavy drinkers. They were talking to each other across me and managed to get me into the conversation. I should have moved. The guy ended up flirting with me and insisting on buying me a drink. I refused it because I can not drink two drinks in a row anymore. And shouldn't really drink two in a whole day, either. Or even one, if you asked my psychiatrist. They were talking all about bourbon and other hard liquor the whole time. Keep in mind that I had to detox in the hospital years ago, and my dad has three times this year alone. In the end, I actually gave them a bit of a lecture about heavy drinking, saying that people end up in the hospital because of it, and that it's good to "check oneself" now and then. [Who knows what they thought of my lecture ] Usually I don't mind chatting with strangers, or even flirting with a guy (though I'm happily married), but I didn't particularly like that guy or woman. The situation was very uncomfortable for me. In addition to the man's flirtation, the woman kept raving about my hair, etc. I had to high-tail it out of there! It's far from the first time I've had to high-tail it away from situations with strangers.

I don't think I'll ever order a drink at a bar by myself, again. If I'm with hubby, he usually drinks half of my one drink, if I order one.