I'm so sorry you're still struggling, HALLIEBETH. Are you taking your Meds and doing everything that you must do? I hope you're following your Pdoc's instructions. Please stay safe. ALWAYS remember that you matter and your Life matter. Keep us updated as much as you can. We're here for you when you need advice and support and we care. You can always PM the ones you trust the most as well if you don't want to make it public. I'm also available if you wish to contact me. Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, HALLIEBETH! Keep fighting and keep rocking!