I completely agree with all the other wise, wonderful posters, @astoldbyginger. Relationships certainly aren't easy but it IS possible to have a long-term one through hard work and determination on BOTH sides. Yes, you'll certainly meet many obstacles, but it's in moments like this that TRUE Love will shine through in my opinion. So my advice would be, just like everyone elese has already wisely and wonderfully said better than I ever could, to keep looking for the RIGHT person for you! Marriages are never going to be perfect but they certainly should make you happy most of the time. I believe that's the right criteria to use. It requires work but it can be WONDERFUL! ALL OF THIS is just my opinion anyway. I may be COMPLETELY wrong! But I think it's the truth for what it's worth. Feel free to PM me ANYTIME if you want to and if you need advice and support of ANY KIND! I am SURE plent of others will also GLADLY and WONDERFULLY help you out as well! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @astoldbyginger, your family, your friends, your doctors, your staff, your parents, your relatives, your ex, your boyfriend whoever it will be, ALL the people you Love and you care about and who ALSO Love you anc care about you as well and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking!