It feels like a combination of daily life that has me feeling overwhelmed on top of the SA. My 2nd oldest is struggling really bad lately at school and home which isn't typical of him and triggering me. He's only 10, and it hurts me to see him so irritable and unhappy. I think he might be depressed but the school therapist hasn't been much help. I emailed 2 child therapists yesterday to see about getting him more help at my Ts advice.
Because my oldest has ADHD, my family and my Hs family never wants to help. Even if I'm in the hospital my mom says she's too old to deal with a bunch of kids running around.
It's lonely and isolating. The only person I really trust outside my immediate family lives 1000 miles away from me. I did put the stuff I use up and hidden after last night. I know where they're at, but it would take longer to get them so it's a little bit of a barrier.