Dear ex-DrT,
So I've been going between anger at you, feeling hurt by you, and brief moments of sadness about the end of the relationship. Like, crying for a minute, maybe wanting to contact you, then it's gone. The anger and hurt parts have been lasting much longer (well, and periods where I feel nothing related to you at all). Not sure if it will continue this way, but the anger is easier in a way to deal with than the sadness. Because then I can put it on you more. Instead of on me. I feel you let your true feelings about me come out Monday. And they weren't good ones. Then again, I let some not-so-good feelings about you come out as well. I think maybe we were each just done with the other? I don't know...Maybe eventually, we can sit down and have a civil conversation about what happened, Perhaps even talk about my progress. But not anytime in the near future. Because I feel it would just be ugly. I want to have positive memories about my relationship with you, but I'm just struggling to have them right now. I can recognize progress I've made, certainly. But I'm talking more about the relationship. Maybe it's easier if those just stay out of my mind. And I can focus on the new T. I've replaced you with a younger, artsier model. Haven't figured out yet if more sensitive and caring, but it wouldn't really take much...
LT