I've researched into many different religions and none appeal to me. Even if parts of it do appeal to me, I just can't fully commit. I don't think there is any higher being, I'm just not ruling the possibility out. I wrote in one of my articles that, "I'd feel pretty stupid if I went through life believing that God doesn't exist only to then find out I have front row seats in Hell when I die."

I actually felt bad for thinking I should be religious just in the hopes of reuniting with a dead family member. In my mind, that isn't the right reason to commit to any religion. I'm a big believer that there is a right and wrong way to go about things.

When I went to my uncle's funeral a few years back, they held communion and I was the only person there who refused to take part. I was basically treated like trash after that but I felt it was wrong for me to take part in that religious ceremony when I don't believe in it. I didn't think it was proper for me to almost "mock" the religious act by doing it. I had a teacher later tell me that that was the appropriate way to react (he was Catholic) but at the time my family and even the Priest gave me a dirty look.

This is just my babblings. I'm just very confused about everything right now.