Dear T,

I hate when you lead group, it makes me tense.

I also hate talking about the BPD diagnosis. I wish I could have talked more about it in group (it felt a little like you were chastising me for talking about it professionally rather than personally).



I don't feel good. I really want to email you but I won't because I'm trying to have more self-control and because falling apart over talking about BPD is so effing BPD and I still don't want you to think I have that. Also because I hate it when I send emails and you don't respond.



Also holy crap your wife picked you up from work with the kids in the car and that was weird. And the only reason I know it was your wife (other than the fact that you were walking towards the car with them in it) is because I've googled her. God, I hate myself.

ALSO, I really wanted to tell you I'm reading that David Mann book. I don't think we're done with the erotic just yet.

-c