Perhaps that is the case. She puts on a nice act in public and will be nice to after she abuses me ( I’m assuming to gain my trust back again so she can rip me apart ). She said that she used to have an eating disorder as a teenager, yet she tries to encourage me to start forming an eating disorder. No matter what, her behavior isn’t acceptable to me in anyway and I generally feel very unsafe around her, especially if I am alone with her. I will definitely look into the book as many people have recommended it to me, and I see if I can find some way to read it without my parents finding out that I am because I would get in huge trouble for doing so. Thank you for the reply.