talking about this MC guy seems really important to me. maybe the most important conversation. how he could say that frustrated him is beyond me. it sounds like you loved (or "loved") the MC and from your posts it seems that he offered a safe and comforting place for younger parts of you and separating from him was extremely difficult. that you got so enmeshed w/ him suggests you did not have safety and comfort as a child and/or do not have it now, two important things to explore. you don't feel totally safe and comforted now and don't have the innate coping skills (supposed to be learned in healthy childhoods) to create it for yourself so when certain paternal figures offer it you hang on to it for dear life and fantasize about it constantly. I'm no therapist but to me a desire that strong, that you would be talking abuot him so much to be "frustrating," means this was an extremely signficant thing to explore and follow to its sources. both paternal and romantic both. what is that fantasy you were engaging and why was it so strong with MC in comparison to Dr T? yes his boundaries seem poor but you felt so good with his attention that you didn't want to ever let go and I don't like that he was so dismissive of it because it seemed to cause you a lot of pain and suffering.