Don't apologize for posting, @qwerty68! I am REALLY HAPPY you're still here!! I am TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY that you're hurting SO BADLY and that you're struggling and going through ALL OF THIS! I do believe there's a part of you that still wants to Live and carry on, however small it may be! So please try to hang on to that! I COMPLETELY AGREE WITH EVERYTHING THAT BOTH TUNEDOUT AND SO' LEIGHEAS HAVE ALREADY WISELY AND WONDERFULLY SAID BETTER THAN I EVER COULD! Please ALWAYS remember that you are important, you matter, you're worth it, you're wise and YOU'RE WONDERFUL! THAT'S ALL ABSOLUTELY TRUE AND YOU KNOW ALL OF THAT IS ABSOLUTELY TRUE AS WELL EVEN IF IT'S DEEP DOWN INSIDE YOU! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING! I am ALWAYS here for you when you need advice and support or even simply someone to talk to or vent to! TunedOut and So' leigheas are here as well and you know it! Please PM me if you need it! You know I'll ALWAYS be available for you! THAT'S A PROMISE! So please, stay safe! Try to do something nice for yourself! I am sorry if my posts are bothering you! That is not my intention, believe me! I just care about you and want to see you happy and safe! I hope you'll be able to hang on despite your struggles! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME when you need advice and support or even simply someone to talk to or vent to! I am SURE plenty of others will also GLADLY, KINDLY WISELY AND WONDERFULLY help you out as well as this thread has already BEAUTIFULLY AND WONDERFULLY shown! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @qwerty68, Your Granddaughter, Irvina As Well, Your Daughters And ALL Of Your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking! I am TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY that you're hurting SO MUCH and that you're struggling and that you have to deal with ALL OF THIS! I TRULY, REALLY AM!!