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Originally Posted by Brienne
Itīs so weird because in this and many other forums i have read stories like that from people who struggled a lot more than me. But on the other side a lot of specialists and sometimes another pacients have told me that this is a "simple" disease, that is the most "easy" phsyciatric disease, that is just a matter of finding the right medication and everithing is gonna be alright. But a lot of people struggle for a lot of years, in opposition of what books says about bipolarity.
And it sucks because for a lot of year they make me feel like ****, like i didnt try enough, but then i found this forums and found out that maybe im not that bad after all.
I dont know what to beleive at this point.
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There is nothing easy about bipolar disorder. The struggles are real and many people go through it without ever finding the right meds or therapy. I think providers often simply do not understand how powerful the mind is. I told my therapist, who is amazing and understands a lot about bipolar, that she can never truly understand unless she one day experiences her mind taking over and driving despite the best efforts of her own will. Losing control of yourself is a life altering experience and you simply cannot fully understand until you live it. It can be incredibly hard and we have to forgive ourselves and be kind to ourselves. We have to love ourselves despite the choices we have made that we wish we could undo. We have to remain hopeful and take control in the moment of what we can. Doctors don't tell you that. It would perhaps be 'easier' to deal with this diagnosis if they did.