Yes, I agree with EVERYTHING that ALL the other wise, wonderful posters have already BEAUTIFULLY, MARVELLOUSLY, WISELY AND WONDERFULLY said BETTER THAN I EVER COULD! Definitely seek couple counseling if you can and if your partner agrees with it. Other than that, seek the support of all the people who care about you...friends, family members, neighbours, acquaintances, kids of people you know, ALL the people you can reach out to! We are here for you as well although unfortunately we can't provide physical support... but hopefully we can provide some affective and psychological one at least! Please feel free to PM me ANYTIME if you need advice and support or even simply someone to talk to and vent to! I know it's not a lot but hopefully it's something at least. Remember that you're awesome, you're beautiful, you're kind, you're generous, you're sweet, you're important, you matter, you're worth it, you're WISE and you're WONDERFUL! THAT'S ALL ABSOLUTELY AND UNDENIABLY TRUE AND YOU ALSO KNOW THAT'S ABSOLUTELY AND UNDENIABLY TRUE AS WELL EVEN IF IT'S DEEP DOWN INSIDE YOU! THAT'S A PROMISE! I AM SURE OF THAT! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING! I am SURE plenty of others will also GLADLY, KINDLY, WISELY and WONDERFULLY help you as well as this thread has already BEAUTIFULLY, MARVELLOUSLY, WISELY and WONDERFULLY shown! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @whiteroses40, Your Family, your Friends, Your Relatives, Your Partner If You Wish, ALL The People You Love And Care About Who ALSO Love You And Deeply And Truly Care About You As Well As Much As You Love Them And Care About Them Who TRULY And REALLY Love You And Care About You For WHO YOU TRULY ARE! Keep fighting and keep rocking! I am SO SORRY that you're hurting and that you're going through ALL OF THIS!