Oh, forgot to check in today...

Feeling pretty low. Lower than yesterday. At least I saw my grandma and she's doing alright. It's hard seeing her not doing well and then her making "jokes" about dying soon.

I hope I can crawl out of this hole soon. I went from 2mg of rexulti to 4mg (which is what I was on before), and I think it'll take a while before I see any (positive) effect.

I'm trying to remain positive for my parents and my grandma, but it's hard, really hard. My dad actually asked me if I wanted to go with him to donate my other grandma's clothes to Good Will (she died, for those who don't know), and I said I'd rather sleep. I didn't want to admit that that'd hurt me. So now he thinks I'm sleeping, but I'm actually just laying down and feeling sh_tty.