I agree with many of the comments. I know that you are hurting LT, and I know that you need to feel cared for. You also said that you don't have that problem with regular friend, only with male authority figures.. If this is the case, why not consider just stopping therapy for awhile so you don't have to suffer. It doesn't sound like you have any other male authority figures in your life accept your dad. I am not sure how much you actually worked on this relationship with T. You only seem to share your relationship issues in dealing with your MC and T.

I noticed a pattern that you were satisfied in session or emails when T agreed with you on any issue. He always said he would be honest with you but when he was honest and it wasn't what you wanted to hear if was very upsetting for you causing you to try to persuade him to your side. I guess what you really need to decide is do you want to only hear what you want to hear, or do you want to hear the truth and use it as a step toward personal growth and improvement. Therapy involves the client to change; change their thoughts, actions, or ways in which they respond to the unavoidable difficulties in life.

I totally understand your wanting to start with a new T but I also agree that you need to review and accept your actions that contributed to the destruction of the relationship. Repeating more of the same is eventually only going to result in more of the same. I don't really think Dr. T had tight boundaries as he usually gave in and did what you wanted (stone, standing, etc). Although there may be someone further in the middle, I wonder if it would be more helpful for you to see someone with even tighter boundaries to allow yourself to learn to accept no from someone who will hold their boundaries but not get frustrated when you keep pushing.

Personally, I want a T to tell me the truth. I frequently ask my T for an honest answer and it does appear that he tell me exactly what he is thinking. It is not always the answer I want to hear but it allows me to learn how to deal with a disagreement in a safe environment with someone who will not hurt me. I also have to deal with disagreements with people in my real life. I need to learn how to do handle these situations in the real world, I need to learn how to accept that not everything will go my way and people will not always agree with me. I know that everyone is different but for me, that is what therapy is about. Learning to calm myself, increase my distress tolerance and develop skills successfully relate to all kinds of people on a daily basis.

Everyone can give you their opinion and experiences but in the end only you can come up with the answer. Only you can determine what you are looking for and your goals are for therapy. Now that you are between therapists it is the perfect time to make these decisions and choose the T that will help you meet those goals.