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Originally Posted by Innerzone
Well, I got my lightbox out when I seasonally switched out my clothes the other day, and today is the first day I've used it. Been doing ok, but having some challenges and figured it can't hurt to get ahead of it, because I can feel them tugging and trying to pull me down.
I've had a few days at work that have me doubting my abilities. Not altogether, there's just a thing or two that I try like hell and can't master. May well be strength related, but that doesn't matter. I always feel like **** when the boss has to bring any shortcomings up. (And my mind goes to worst case scenario every time. Of course.)
My ex-BF is finishing up his program and is planning on moving back here. I will NOT be getting back together with him. But he's pretty deluded about that. An in-depth conversation is in order, but he has virtually no phone time (phone access is restricted by the program), so I am pretty stressed about that. Yes, I could write, but I'm a REALLY big fan of "decision tree" conversation with such things. (ie., reaction to one thing lets me decide how to present my next point). If I were going no-contact, this would not be such an issue, but I am open to being friends, as we have a lot of interests in common. I realize I've created my own problem with this.
My access to therapy is in jeopardy. Guess when? Yeah, when he'd be coming back here. Sigh.
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Oh! Thanks for the reminder about light boxes! It is a great idea to get started! I think I will do the same!
It can be tough to work things out with an "ex." I am sure you know this better than do I. I find it tough to have my H living within 2 miles of me at this time. This is a small town, so to speak, and we are very apt to run into each other most anytime. I am just not ready to meet up with him that way. I need our interactions to be scheduled and structured for now.
I truly think it is possible for some people to eventually be "friends" of some sort. I think many prove this by successfully sharing custody of children. etc.
I am also sometimes sensitive to "criticism," especially when I am trying hard. i have been learning from my niece, in many ways. She has been having a tough time at work and when she is "criticized," she is not shaken at all. She maintains her confidence and her self-esteem. No injuries. No shifting into any self-deprecating thoughts, etc. She is just... well, she has my heart!
It is always great to hear from you, filling us in on how your life is going!
I look for your posts daily.
