Hello Life777: I noticed this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to Psych Central.

To be honest I'm not sure I know what it is you hoped to get help with... long distance relationships or the sadness you're feeling having gone no contact. From what you wrote it sounds as though your relationship with this gentleman is over. So perhaps learning how to navigate long distance relationships is too late. You wrote you're lost & in a lot of pain. So I presume perhaps it's the sadness you feel that you hope for help with. Here are links to 7 articles, from Psych Central's archives, on the subjects of what to do when you feel lost, how to move past regret, & on healing from heartbreak:

When You Feel Lost

Feeling Lost in Life: A Learning Opportunity

A Powerful Exercise for Moving Past Regret

10 Tips to Mend a Broken Heart

Help on Healing from Heartbreak

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/imper...tional-wounds/

https://pro.psychcentral.com/recover...rom-rejection/

And then, just in case your relationship with this gentleman is not over, here are links to 4 articles on long distance relationships:

https://psychcentral.com/lib/the-cha...onships/?all=1

https://psychcentral.com/lib/7-tips-...tance-couples/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/solve-...ship-problems/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/heali...at-a-distance/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.