You haven't upset anyone that I'm aware of. You certainly haven't upset me. What makes you think you're not liked? It sounds like it's coming from past stuff rather than anything to do with this forum. After all, in all fairness, no one actually knows anyone here, only the words on the screen,

For what it's worth, I find you refreshingly honest, not frustrating. I like it when people can really say how they feel about what's going on with T and how much they are hurting. It's real and honest. It's okay to post a lot if that's your concern. No one has a problem with that. If you don't get replies it might be that people are busy, asleep, or the site was down (in my case the site was down this morning).

Please talk to your T about how you feel. That DOESN'T mean you can't say anything here. Of course you can...and if it helps, do. But T is best placed to help you sort through these painful emotions and find out what is at the root of them.