I'm trying not to text you, especially as you suggested doing so on our usual session day. I'm trying not to care because caring hurts. If my money situation changed I can't trust that you would see me, so I don't want to get into something that is going to hurt me. You're so giving, so empathic. so caring, that it hurts my heart to see you. It's a while yet anyway, so trying to focus on other things and not care.