I COMPLETELY AGREE WITH ALL THE OTHER WISE AND WONDERFUL POSTERS AND EVERYTHING THAT THEY HAVE ALREADY WISELY AND WONDERFULLY SAID BETTER THAN I EVER COULD!! I AM TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY THAT YOU'RE BOTH STRUGGLING AND HURTING SO BADLY AND THAT YOU'RE BOTH GOING THROUGH ALL OF THIS! Definitely seek the help of a Therapist or ANY Professional working in the Mental Health Department! I'd also suggest Couple Counselling if your Wife is up to it and if you feel like it! Please be kind to yourself... Yes, you've made some mistakes, but you're doing your BEST to repair them so that's WONDERFUL! PLEASE ALWAYS BE REALLY REALLY KIND TO YOURSELF AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN!Remember that YOU'RE AWESOME, you're beautiful, you're caring, you're kind, you're a dear, you're sweet, you're generous, you're friendly, you're expansive, you're resourceful, you're important, you're worth it, you matter, you're wise and YOU'RE WONDERFUL! THAT'S ALL AND ENTIRELY ABSOLUTELY AND ENTIRELY TRUE AND YOU KNOW THAT'S ALL AND ENTIRELY ABSOLUTELY AND ENTIRELY TRUE AS WELL EVEN IF IT'S DEEP DOWN INSIDE YOU! PLEASE ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT YOU'RE ALWAYS STRONGER THAN YOU BELIEVE AND THAT YOU WILL MAKE IT NO MATTER WHAT! THAT'S ALL AND ENTIRELY ABSOLUTELY AND ENTIRELY TRUE AND YOU KNOW THAT'S ALL ABSOLUTELY AND ENTIRELY TRUE AS WELL EVEN IF IT'S DEEP DOWN INSIDE YOU! THAT'S A PROMISE! I AM SURE OF THAT! PLEASE NEVER EVER GIVE UP HOPE NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU OR ALL OF YOUR LOVED ONES! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING! I am sure that if you work with your Wife and discuss the problems that may have led to your first separation things will work out! Keep us updated, keep working on yourself, keep trying your best along with your Wife and your Children AND KEEP US POSTED! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME if you need advice and support or even simply someone to talk to! I am SURE plenty of others will also GLADLY, KINDLY, WISELY AND WONDERFULLY help you out as well! THAT'S A PROMISE! I AM SURE OF THAT! Sending Many Safe, Warm Hugs to BOTH You, @tkdan63, Your Family, Your Friends, Your Wife, Your Children, Your Stepchildren, Your Therapists If You'Re Seeing Some, Your Pdocs If You'Re Seeing Some, Your Doctors, Your Nurses, Your Medical Staff, Your Medical Team, ALL The People You Love Who ALSO TRULY and DEEPLY Love You And Care About You For Who You Truly Are As Much As You Love Them And Care About Them For Who They TRULY Are Who TRULY Love And Care About You For WHO YOU TRULY ARE And ALL Of Your Loved Ones! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING! I AM TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY THAT YOU'RE HURTING AND STRUGGLING SO BADLY AND THAT YOU'RE BOTH GOING THROUGH ALL OF THIS!!