I don't even know what "feeling like myself" is anymore. Since my symptoms started popping up I've either been zonked out on meds or in some sort of episode (or both), not to mention how past trauma is screwing with me today. I took a shower, hid my sharp objects, and threw out my weed like you guys told me (well, honestly I smoked it all but either way it's gone). I'm going to make an effort to get better and I'm going to be honest and assertive at my next pdoc appointment which is on Tuesday.
Still feel like **** though.