I have life long memory issues. I attribute them to both my illness and my meds. I’m only 36 but people will tell me stories, sometimes ones that seem important, and I will have no recollection. I do remember parts of my episodes, mostly because when I’m manic, particularly psychotic, I think I’m a genius and need to capture every possible thought. So, I usually have a history in my writing. That being said, my mom and husband tell me things I don’t recall about my episodes as well.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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