Yeah my therapist said how was building the realtionship. Yeah eay too far deep. She probably saw it going that way. I remembered how I called her 3 times but she didnt call back. I called the receptions so it wasnt you know her work phone or personal phone. It was cause I was having panicked attack. I had no idea she doesnt work on that day so the following week she said to me " ringing 3 times wont make me call you faster" it really hurt me when she said that.
She just got notifications on her phone by email. That was the day she reduce to one phone call the following week I wasnt allowed to call my keyworker anymore only of I want to work through some thing. So I felt even more rejected. So I dont bother calling the keyowler cause I dont trust her. I keep her far away incase they try to gain my trust again and reject me again..