Mania uncovered several of my weaknesses. It shined a huge spotlight on trauma I was holding onto and habits I needed to let go of. It forced me to look at the areas of my life that were working against my health and overall wellbeing. None of these issues were pressing enough for me to take action before I broke down. I recognized some of them, but I had no idea the toll they were taking on my mind and my heart. Mania served as an amazing catalyst for change in my life. I didn't enjoy anything about the 'high' of mania. It was pure Hell. However, I can find value in it after the fact. I know I'd still be justifying all kinds of poor decisions without it. Mania stripped me of all of my excuses.