Saw my Peer Worker today... she says I'm fine today and she doesn't think I was manic as although she is concerned about the guys coming over I didn't have sex and was just fooling around with them. I have spent lots of money but it would be thousands rather than hundreds of pounds. I would have grandiose ideas, not sleeping much (much less than I am), busier than i was, not able to hide it etc etc

I have a feeling my appt in 22 hours with my CPN won't go down well. I'm dreading it tbh. I'm confused what is wrong with me?