I'm back from Maine. It wasn't that great, we mostly just drove around lost for hours. I'm not feeling as revved up as I was this morning, and I'm actually kinda scared I'm going back to that dark place I was in the past month or so. Although honestly I'm kinda hoping to just for tomorrow so I will be more inclined to tell my pdoc how I've been doing and she can see for herself. I would hate to be fine today and tomorrow and go back into the black hole only to have to wait 2 months to see her again.