Welcome to PC!

I hope you find the information and the support you may be seeking.

I am very sorry for all you have been through. I think it is normal to have some anxiety around being triggered.
In time, when feeling stable, you might take a chance and get back out there looking for a relationship, or not.

It is true that meds and/or depression can take a toll on one's libido.
I hope you do find a healthy and rewarding relationship in perfect timing.