17th October is the next due date to pass.
If I would have known what fighting back would mean maybe I would have just let nature take its course instead of watching me fall apart bit by bit.

My mind has just gone into neutral.
When I consider fighting back I can't anymore.

The methods doctors use these days to look inside a body and pinpoint what is wrong is amazing
But
They can also tell you with precision what is wrong.
Then
Comes the sorry.

My sad journey continues