I'm sorry you are feeling very depressed and also sorry if my question was stressful to try to answer, I hope it didn't upset you in any way. It really is a rather difficult thing to answer, I was just trying to understand what it was you (or your doctor) might have been thinking would the goal for before you felt ready to enter a relationship. However, you certainly don't need to respond to that question. I do agree you deserve a healthy relationship once you feel ready.