I’m fine with leaving my apartment as a “whole”; I am not someone with difficulties with agoraphobia. I meant more... like... the situation is the reverse of what I am accustomed to, such that, being in my apartment alone would allow me to ruminate and be in crisis... but right now I’m experiencing the opposite where I am fine in my apartment but not be very well at all outside.

When I am in my apartment, my “situation” (all the crisis stuff) doesn’t really cross my mind or cause too much anxiety. However, when I am out and about in the “outside world”; my situation starts manifesting into all my thoughts, and makes all other mental processes difficult to execute .

Spacey and Racey, as a symptom, is something that is a hallmark of my mixed episodes. So I’m also interested in hearing others’ mixed episodes experiences