((((((((( Kalamity Jane )))))))))

I think you did the RIGHT thing in sending your children away... at least they are in a place where you know they are well looked after. If you'd kept them at home... well, they'd have been with you but you'd have struggled to look after them properly so they'll have suffered for it and it wouldn't have helped you mentally either... this way the children can get the optimum treatment to help them, you get to see them, they know you love them and you know they love you - and yet you still have the time to look after you too and get you better.

Do you think you could arrange to have them visit for weekends?