I had a chance with a really great woman. Granted, it was a small chance, but what little chance there was I screwed up. I don't even want to go into the details.

I just can't stand myself. I screw everything up. I'm a complete **** up. Every time I have a chance at something, I do something stupid and ruin it.

I'm condemned to spend the rest of my life as me. I hate myself and I hate my life.