Feeling tired, apathetic, and like I have no motivation. It's taking me a long time to get going in the mornings. I really can't tell if I am depressed or if this is just more of a physical thing or if this is just me. Ruminating a lot and feeling very guilty over all my past mistakes, like I am not a good person.

I am meeting with my supervisor about job opportunities this week. I was supposed to think about what I wanted to do next with my career, but I feel uncertain. I was so motivated about this new degree, but now I feel I cannot predict what my brain will do and therefore am scared to make a decision. At least my SO is visiting tonight and I am going to see some friends. Maybe that will cheer me up a bit.