Just wondering because I've been getting 12-13 hrs a night and I feel awful. I basically want to die. I wish I never existed in the first place.

I'm not a danger to myself or others -- I don't have a "plan" -- but my outlook on life is very negative right now. I guess I don't see the point in doing anything these days. Like, "what's the point? I still feel like sh_t no matter what I do."

I know this feeling will eventually pass, but it'll also eventually come back. The fact it'll inevitably return bothers me. It's like you can never escape; you only get temporary relief.